Listening to: Undertale- "An Ending"
Reading: LGBTQA webcomics
Watching: Steven Universe
Playing: Pokemon Shuffle/Animal Crossing CF/Undertale
Eating: Fiber filled foods, cooked meals
Drinking: Water... medicine...
Today is January 26th 2016.
It is night time. about 11pm.
I am 22 years old, weighing about 266 lbs.
I am still holding on.
There has been some... rough storms along my journey since the last entry.
I graduated The Art Institute of New York City, and looking for designer jobs/ paid internships.
I have some programs in my computer that can upgrade my drawings.
I am cooking my own food, learning new recipes so that I may not have to go out to buy junkfood.
Some... bad things have happened that left me to be more reclusive than a hermit.
Financial debt, death and murder within the family... relapse of depression and anxiety...
and... I am going to have a biopsy of my throat on February 5th, hopefully.
Doctors ran some tests on me and found a 4 centimeter mass in my thyroid.
They don't know what it is yet, but they say it is a low chance of me having cancer.
Looking back at my past, I just wished I had told someone to help me sooner.
But I cannot keep looking back at my mistakes.
But I am am looking forward,
... an all I see is a thick fog looming closer.
Some people might not believe me because they can see just fine.
I wish I could talk to old friends again without feeling guilty of being myself.
I want to socialize again. I want to make new friends again.
I want my mind to stop fighting me and my body.
I am tired as it is.
I will update as soon as I get the results of my biopsy.
In the meantime, I will update my professional stuff on behance.
All I can do is for the present.